Forever is nothing

I don't know which is more painful. i sound like a complete self obsessed teenager but really, my life sucks. by the way, i kinda sprained my back all because of a mere sneeze. ):

Not that painful if you hv to know, i just can't slouch, can't bend down, and even in the least painful position, it will still hurt after awhile.

thepoorstudent is making me yearn for someone who's jihoo-like HA HA with her jihoo propaganda today. There's a possibility someone like him exist but i prolly dont deserve that kind of person and not as if that kind of person will like someone like me.

Lappybatt running low btw i couldnt be bothered to hv it plug in bye kids

i heard a screeching swerve/skid and next was what i feared most. a loud collision that stopped my heart for awhile. im not at the accident area, neither do i know who's involved. but for awhile i got scared. that state of shock/fear in which swear words just keep running thourgh your mind, on the tip of your tongue, and slowly flowing off your lips.

i dont know. am i supposed to be this affected?

i really want whoever's involved to be okay. because knowing how lives can be so easily ended is just really.... really scary. really really scary and heartbreaking.

can someone turn me into a squirtle? i promise to be an awesome pokemon. ):

if you've manage to guess/decode it then good for you.

sometimes i don't even know why i bother so yes please, return me my old perspective and this time round i swear i will be bulletproof.

And it's D for ____ .

Plan to start revision for my second last paper at 5pm because i am never productive when my mind's away, latching on new ideas that makes me almost short of breath and that's maybe because i haven't seen much of the world lately having to take down the A's and actually, more of me getting taken down the the A's. Then there are all my old favourite movies to revisit like Titanic, Moulin Rouge, and a few that i can't remember offhand...... because new chart toppers never did seem to find a place on my personal charts. What's the point of always indulging in the brand new when all it ever do is to eventually fade, and the impact never stays for long. So i guess given the emphasis on the keyword i am not contradicting myself by declaring that i do love discovering new stuff do i, haha.

And i'm always losing my sense of direction

I ought to get a notebook and jot my purposes down for every single damn thing before i get blown away with the slightest hint of a breeze to places i often do not wholly enjoy myself in yet for god's sake i don't know why am i stuck there. But i am almost always lucky to meander back onto course

These days I'm still chalking up nine, ten hours of sleep on the average, gave my heart to an amazing band called Bayside, still catching my favourite shows on the tube, and trying to enjoy the process of learning.  Screw the schedule, the revised schedule, the multiple revise versions of all my schedules!!!!!

Living by the idea of how "2 out of 3 ain't bad"

Welllllllllllllllllll, it's not like the end of the world if i screw this up isn't it? HA HA HA. It's important, but it isn't everything. I need motivation, but not unhealthy motivation. I'm not giving up, but neither am i gonna let the A's dehumanise me.

And this is the list of things that i need: Hotcakes, strawberry milk tea, imba alarm clock that can get me outta bed (which will come with 8 days of waiting), grey highlighter, nice weather, health, dreamless sleep every night. Oh and a dinosaur to be my friend and a hedgehog to be my sleeping mate.

Btw i can't fricking believe Lykke Li is on New Moon's OST. What!!!!!!!!!!!! This is mass raping!!!!!!! I feel so sorry for Death cab fans, lykke li's.... Ummm ok i can't rmbr who's on the list. The killers? But still, it doesnt make their songs any less awesome.

 

1) :O we could hv been studying in the same fricking institution. It was my sixth choice!!
2) Ten more days but not prepared at all ): ): ):
3) You don't feel me but I should be used to it by now lol.

Today ive been glued to the tv all evening. Haha hell i hv history stuff to complete but im sleepy now. Should hv been more selectively about tv programs. I came online to find the elusive song but i still cannot find it leh!!!

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I need a hug right now ):

Hate this study break but only because i am completely devoid of the self discipline needed to study. And wake up. I've been sleeping 12 hours on the average per day (inclusive of naps) and wake up calls are not that effective (don't give up on me although everytime you call i will end up sleeping back). I refuse to look at the calendar because a count down scares me and usually a mental breakdown of sorts will follow after.

I've been wasting time away these days and i promise after this post i will get back on track. Incredible how this rat race reveal the amount of self absorbed people out there. Before i go......



1)Enjoy looking at these smiles cz i bet we will all turn into sluggish fat blobs with breakouts and whatnots from stress. Haha!
2)Cut my hair short and piggy must be happy cz my irritatingly long fringe is gone

Woke up at around 2ish officially today to a bout of sinus and it isn't going away..... Sorry to the kids for not turning up at tamp inter / bedok library cz i kept sleeping back!! Damn sad today lehhhh Buajin was kinda sick so I cooked her lunch and she ate so little ): Heart pain only! But she's so cute, secretly very whiney ( just like me), hehehehehe. Had a bit of h2h talk with her, haizxxxxxxx sad only now then tell me that kind of thing.

Things to be happy about today:

1) June!!!!!!!!!!!! Frickkkk I'm damn happy ok I shall not say much but you know I know lalala
2) Seeing the (500) ad on tv i wna watch i wna watch i wna watch
3) Can lie in my bed for a longer period of time today

Things I'm unhappy about today:
1) Buajin being sick
2) Hate watching heroes cz I always feel v disturbed after that yet I can't take my eyes off the telly
3) Poe essay, SGC write up....

I should stop being so bloddy lazy!!!! What's wrong with me!!! Ok back to clearing my nose and making love to my box of tissues.

//Edit: Hiiiii thepoorstudent your recent post make me wanna cry only lol ok just joking am so not a crybaby heh wo ai ni :*

"Hey", said Shadow. "Huginn or Munnin, or whoever you are."
The bird turned, head tipped, suspiciously, on one side, and it stared at him with bright eyes.
"Say 'Nevermore'" said Shadow.
"Fuck you," said the raven. It said nothing else as they went through the woodland together.

-Neil Gaiman, American Gods @Literaryquotes

Hyped up for the family trip back to thailand (jan 2010).... Puppies babies kitties laidback chill air cold breeze night-time camp fire no hustle bustle no busybee routines (: And I will be a walking sugar pop consuming all the cheap confectionery available there~ Say you wanna come too and we'll travel together aight!


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All or nothing